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Oh, what I put myself though just to make it easy to lose a measly ten pounds.
Every time the lip's pierced the weight just falls off because it hurts too much to eat. I'm putting myself in physical pain to be thin. My mother would be horrified at that thought, but to me it's nothing different. Besides, physical pain is a hundred times more manageable than emotional pain.

She's starving in that half-state. Wondering of she's gone completely mad. Eyes black and hazy around the edges every time she stands, stomach's stopped growling at this point. Even the body knows it's useless to react from this, it won't get food.
Living in a constant haze-dream seen though rose-colored glasses. This life is too hard to go though with a clear head, she doesn't even want to try.

Someone once said 'reality is something you rise above.'
I think it's something you hide from.
&& This is my version of hide && seek.

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When love && death embrace. - 2006-03-29
One more time around.. - 2005-12-16
Update. - 2005-04-14
Ugly Passion - 2005-03-15
A little bit of B and P. - 2005-03-14

This public diary is for those with weight issues. People with eating disorders or just simply will never accomplish the perfect size. This diary in no way condones eating disorders and if you feel your situation is severe, please seek professional help. I am not a professional. Thank you.

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